Another step!!

The emotions are running high right now. I just got off the phone with the Reproductive Care Center in Sandy.. We are headed there on January 27 to start our treatments with doctor Blauer.. I know that this is the right thing to do. This is the next step that we have to take in trying to start our family. It has been such an emotional roller coaster so far, and I know it's really only just beginning. When I hung the phone up with them I just started to bawl, this is the last step that we can take in becoming parents, it is terrifying to think that there is a chance that this won't work and I might never be able to be a mother. I have faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, but I also know that it is on their timeline and there is a possibility that I might not get the chance to be a mother on this earth. And that is very heartbreaking for me. I look all around me and see these wonderful ladies who get to be mothers to several children and I just long to get the chance to have a child of my own. I want that chance to be able to experience the joy and also the pain and frustration that kids bring. So many people take their kids for granted and I wish I could just shake them and tell them how lucky they 

are to get to be parents and get to have children. Children are one of the greatest blessing I think we can have while here on this earth, and I just pray that I get the chance to experience that amazing blessing. 

Happy New Year

We had a wonderful New Year's Eve.. We spent the first part of it cheering on BOISE STATE!! It was a great game, lets be honest I couldn't sit there and watch the last quarter. I was up and doing stuff and checking back every so often, it was a great game and I am proud to be a BRONCO fan.. The rest of the night we just played games and kept eating food:) then on New Year's Day we went sledding as a family up by Yost. It was a lot of fun I could spend all day everyday out playing in the snow.. Happy 2015 everyone!

Christmas Time

When we got back from Vegas I got to babysit these cuties and I got to do their elf on the shelf for them it was a lot of fun. they were so shocked on how their elf got to my house. Madison told me he must have a key to my house:) Oh their imaginations.

The Saturday before Christmas we went up to Albion to their live Nativity that they put on every year. WOW!! It was a wonderful experience. You could feel the spirit so strong. It really got me in the Christmas Spirit.

We had a wonderful Christmas we spent Christmas Eve up in Hailey with Todd's family. It was a lot of fun. We had a good game of Scum going on and the girls dominated. Then on Christmas we spent in with my family and then went to Almo and spent time with my moms family. It was a wonderful Christmas. The roads were really bad so Lindsay and her family wasn't able to make it out so on the 26th we took all their presents into them and then went out to dinner. So it was like Christmas lasted two days I loved it:) I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I am so grateful for my Savior Jesus Christ and for the opportunity that we have to celebrate his birth! Merry Christmas everyone!! 

Las Vegas

Thanksgiving was a good day, we spent the day here in Malta with my family. Then the next day we went to Twin to do a little shopping and when I say little that is what I mean haha, we went a bought hair spray and a couple chrome casts:) I do not like to shop on Black Friday, people are crazy and it just seems to ruin the Christmas Spirit so I stay as far away as I can. That night we went to Rupert to the Square for the lighting of the square it was a lot of fun.

Then the next weekend is when we left for Vegas. Its crazy how I wait all year for this vacation and then once it gets here it goes by so fast. We left on Saturday the 6 and drove to Mesquite where we stayed the night. We got there really early this year. I think we were all excited to get going cause we left Malta an hour earlier than what we had planned:) So since we were in Mesquite so early we decided to go bowling. I am horrible at bowling but it is still fun. The next day we headed to Vegas. It was a very fun week in Vegas. We got a Power Pass for one day and it included all this stuff you can go do. So we went to the Wax Museum, Rode the Ferris Wheel (High Roller), went to the Dolphin Habitat, went to the top of the Eifel Tower and rode the Roller Coaster. I loved the roller coaster I couldn't stop laughing the whole time. It was Todd's first time on a roller coaster so it was a good time. He enjoyed it as well.

We went to the Tournament of Kings one night that was a lot of fun. We also did Fremont Street, The Fountains, and the Volcano. One night Tara, Todd and I went to Joe's Crab Shack and ate it was a fun night:) The last night we were in Vegas Todd and I just walked the strip and explored.

One day we spent a long time at the trade shows so by the time we got back to our rooms all of our feet were killing us so we filled up our bathtub with cold water and put ice in it and soaked our feet. I don't think we have laughed that hard in a long time. It was a great trip to Vegas this year!

                                     

 

 

 

Once again it has been forever since I last blogged. We have been really busy this fall. I can't believe it is the middle of November we head to Vegas in 2 1/2 weeks. I am so excited to get away. The last two weeks has been a really trying time for me. I finished my last round of Clomid in October and unfortunately we were still unable to conceive. The same day that I found out I was not pregnant Todd was headed home from work and hit a cow. It totaled the car, luckily he was ok. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father and that he kept Todd safe that night. I am so grateful for the power of prayer.
As far as trying to start a family our next step is a fertility clinic. I have researched several down in Utah but I still feel like I am walking into a black hole blind folded. I have so many questions and I don't even know where to begin. I am so worried about the finical part of it. I never thought in a million years that I would have to worry if I was going to be a mom and now that is all I think about and I spend sleepless nights wondering about what the future holds for Todd and I, if we will ever get the opportunity to be parents. And how much money do we put into s fertility clinic before we consider other options; and if those other options are maybe adoption where do we even start with that? Thats a whole other ball game. I just feel so lost right now I just wish I could get some answers,
On October 16 Todd and I celebrated our 5 year anniversary. I can't believe we have been married for five years, it has gone by so fast. We went to Idaho falls for a couple days, we got a room at the black swan inn. It was a nice little getaway. Breakfast was wonderful. We stayed in the Rome room.

Happy Fall

I haven't been babysitting much any more but for two weeks in October I got to babysit the girls. Both days that I baby sat Madison had stuff going on at school. So I got to go to the pumpkin patch one day and then to her Halloween party the other day. We had a lot of fun, love these two girls so much

Ogden Temple

One day when I was babysitting Madison and Ainsley, Madison told me that she wishes she could go inside the temple. I knew that the Ogden Temple open house was going to be going on so we got tickets and all of us girls went down and went through the open house. It is a very beautiful temple