Rock Springs

Todd had another competition in Rock Springs this year. They did so awesome they ended up taking 2nd out of 14 teams. It is a lot of fun to watch them compete as a team they have come along ways. The last day the competition was running way behind and I was out in the sun for way longer than I had planned and ended up getting fried.. I paid for it later. Broke out with sun blisters all over my lips and everything peeled twice. I learned my lesson sunscreen from now on..

Jazz Game

I truly have amazing friends. My dear friend Lacey Higley is a season ticket holder for the Utah Jazz and she called me up and asked if I would like to go with her. It was so much fun, I have never been to a jazz game and I really enjoyed it. We left a little early and went and had dinner at Red Lobster before the game.. It was sooooo good!!! It was such a fun girls night out.

Easter

We took the girls to the little Easter egg hunt here in Malta. This year Ainsley finally got into and picked up her own candy. They came away with a lot of candy.. We had fun playing at the play ground and riding bikes around afterwards. I am so grateful for my savior Jesus Christ and for his atoning sacrifice. I am grateful for the atonement and the power it has to change lives.

Hiking!!

Todd and I did some hiking this spring, we went to the city of rocks and then one time we went to twin and picked up Tara and went and hiked down to Box Canyon. The water was so beautiful down there it's was really really blue. We are so blessed with so much beauty in southern Idaho..

Nieces

I love these two probably more than they will ever know.. I love when I get to babysit them. The first two pictures Madison had my camera while I was in my doctors appointment she decided she would take a few selfies. It's always fun to get on my phone and see what kind of pictures are on there.

Trip to Utah

Well it's been a little over three weeks since our first trip down to Utah and it's been a very stressful three weeks. We met with Dr. Blauer on January 27. I have never been so nervous for anything as I was for this doctor appointment. It was just the unknown that was killing me. I didn't know what to expect at all. But I honestly can say that it was a great appointment. Dr. Blauer is a great guy and very easy to talk to and he made us feel very comfortable. I was for sure thinking going into this appointment that we would start IUI's right off the bat, but Dr. Blauer is having us try Femara for three months and then we will go from there. I had to have another ultra sound done and an HSG as well. When I went in for my ultrasound the doctor couldn't get a real clear picture of my uterus and he was thinking that I might only have half a uterus. He couldn't tell for sure but we would know for sure once I had the HSG.. When I was told I had to have an HSG done they warned me that it is a very painful procedure and to expect very intense cramping for about 15 minutes. An HSG is where they take an X-ray of your uterus and Fallopian Tubes to make sure they all look good and there is no blockage in the Fallopian Tubes. They did offer me some Valium and I didn't give it a second thought I took it in a heartbeat:) I am a baby when it comes to pain!! There were 6 days between the time I had my ultra sound and the time I had to go back for the HSG.. Six long days of waiting, wondering, questioning. What if I did only have half a uterus? I knew that it was a very good possibility and at first I was ok with it, at least I would have an answer as to why I haven't been able to get pregnant and we could start the process of looking into adoption. But as those six days went on I thought about it more and the longing to be able to conceive and have a baby never went away it got stronger and stronger. But what if the HSG showed that I only have half a uterus how would I cope with that reality. I really thought in the beginning that I would be able to do it and that everything would be ok but the more I thought about it the more I prayed that the HSG would show otherwise. As the day arrived for the HSG Todd and I headed to Utah that morning, I was so stressed that I literally made myself sick. Todd was amazing he just kept telling me that everything was going to be ok, he was the strong one out of the two of us and he was going to make sure I believed him. We had to be there 30 minutes before my appointment so I could take the Valium and give it time to kick in before my procedure. The doctor was running behind so we ended up waiting almost an extra 30 minutes. That was the longest hour ever sitting in that waiting room. They took me back and got me all ready and then Todd had to step out because of the radiation. The test only took about three minutes if that. They told me to expect at least 15 minutes but it went really fast and everything looked amazing, the first words out of the doctors mouth once they started the procedure was, "That's a beautiful uterus." Lol I never thought I would be so excited to hear such a thing as that, but at that moment I was so relieved and so grateful. They pushed the dye through my Fallopian Tubes and everything looked really really good. I know without a shadow of a doubt that my Father in Heaven answers prayers. This was one of the several things in my life that I have prayed and prayed about and Heavenly Father heard the pleading of my heart and was there to comfort me and answer those prayers. The Lord has a plan for Todd and I and I know that in that plan we will be parents. We are a step closer to that dream and I can't wait till the day that we get to become parents.

Another step!!

The emotions are running high right now. I just got off the phone with the Reproductive Care Center in Sandy.. We are headed there on January 27 to start our treatments with doctor Blauer.. I know that this is the right thing to do. This is the next step that we have to take in trying to start our family. It has been such an emotional roller coaster so far, and I know it's really only just beginning. When I hung the phone up with them I just started to bawl, this is the last step that we can take in becoming parents, it is terrifying to think that there is a chance that this won't work and I might never be able to be a mother. I have faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, but I also know that it is on their timeline and there is a possibility that I might not get the chance to be a mother on this earth. And that is very heartbreaking for me. I look all around me and see these wonderful ladies who get to be mothers to several children and I just long to get the chance to have a child of my own. I want that chance to be able to experience the joy and also the pain and frustration that kids bring. So many people take their kids for granted and I wish I could just shake them and tell them how lucky they 

are to get to be parents and get to have children. Children are one of the greatest blessing I think we can have while here on this earth, and I just pray that I get the chance to experience that amazing blessing.