Trip to Utah

Well it's been a little over three weeks since our first trip down to Utah and it's been a very stressful three weeks. We met with Dr. Blauer on January 27. I have never been so nervous for anything as I was for this doctor appointment. It was just the unknown that was killing me. I didn't know what to expect at all. But I honestly can say that it was a great appointment. Dr. Blauer is a great guy and very easy to talk to and he made us feel very comfortable. I was for sure thinking going into this appointment that we would start IUI's right off the bat, but Dr. Blauer is having us try Femara for three months and then we will go from there. I had to have another ultra sound done and an HSG as well. When I went in for my ultrasound the doctor couldn't get a real clear picture of my uterus and he was thinking that I might only have half a uterus. He couldn't tell for sure but we would know for sure once I had the HSG.. When I was told I had to have an HSG done they warned me that it is a very painful procedure and to expect very intense cramping for about 15 minutes. An HSG is where they take an X-ray of your uterus and Fallopian Tubes to make sure they all look good and there is no blockage in the Fallopian Tubes. They did offer me some Valium and I didn't give it a second thought I took it in a heartbeat:) I am a baby when it comes to pain!! There were 6 days between the time I had my ultra sound and the time I had to go back for the HSG.. Six long days of waiting, wondering, questioning. What if I did only have half a uterus? I knew that it was a very good possibility and at first I was ok with it, at least I would have an answer as to why I haven't been able to get pregnant and we could start the process of looking into adoption. But as those six days went on I thought about it more and the longing to be able to conceive and have a baby never went away it got stronger and stronger. But what if the HSG showed that I only have half a uterus how would I cope with that reality. I really thought in the beginning that I would be able to do it and that everything would be ok but the more I thought about it the more I prayed that the HSG would show otherwise. As the day arrived for the HSG Todd and I headed to Utah that morning, I was so stressed that I literally made myself sick. Todd was amazing he just kept telling me that everything was going to be ok, he was the strong one out of the two of us and he was going to make sure I believed him. We had to be there 30 minutes before my appointment so I could take the Valium and give it time to kick in before my procedure. The doctor was running behind so we ended up waiting almost an extra 30 minutes. That was the longest hour ever sitting in that waiting room. They took me back and got me all ready and then Todd had to step out because of the radiation. The test only took about three minutes if that. They told me to expect at least 15 minutes but it went really fast and everything looked amazing, the first words out of the doctors mouth once they started the procedure was, "That's a beautiful uterus." Lol I never thought I would be so excited to hear such a thing as that, but at that moment I was so relieved and so grateful. They pushed the dye through my Fallopian Tubes and everything looked really really good. I know without a shadow of a doubt that my Father in Heaven answers prayers. This was one of the several things in my life that I have prayed and prayed about and Heavenly Father heard the pleading of my heart and was there to comfort me and answer those prayers. The Lord has a plan for Todd and I and I know that in that plan we will be parents. We are a step closer to that dream and I can't wait till the day that we get to become parents.