2012 Moments..

I can not believe that 2012 has come and gone. It seems like this year has gone by so fast. So much has happened in 2012; There were good and bad.. But I am so grateful for everything that Todd and I went through and got to experience this last year it has been a good year. I have learned a lot and have grown to be a better person because of it. As I was thinking about this past year I thought about 12 things that I feel had a big impact on my life. So here they are

 

#12: IN JANUARY TODD AND I WERE CALLED TO BE PRIMARY TEACHERS AND WE WERE TO TEACH THE SUNBEAMS!!! I was so scared when they asked us to teach. I love kids and I love being around kids but this calling was a HUGE testimony builder and it taught me a lot. I am not going to lie at first I was very negative about this calling. Here we were new to the ward and they throw us in the primary to teach the sunbeams: or as I thought of it as a Babysitting job at church. How was I going to get four little sunbeams to listen to me and to respect me as their teacher. Time went on and I came to love these kids I looked forward to seeing them every Sunday. Our lessons only lasted ten minutes and then the rest of the time we spent coloring and playing games getting to know each other. I was really starting to enjoy my calling... And then they released the other sunbeam teacher so now we had eight sunbeams.. It was hard I am not going to lie. But I am grateful that I had the opportunity to have this calling. There is a special spirit that you feel when you are surrounded by little children. They truly love their Savior and are so innocent when it comes to the outside world.  I have learned to have so much more patience and love for little kids.  

#11: In February after three months of phone call after phone call we were finally able to close on our house.. This was a true test of patience for me. I have never been so frustrated in my life. We moved to Malta in November and we were suppose to close in December and then it kept getting pushed back two weeks here and two weeks there. Before we knew it it was February and we still hadn't closed. I was getting so frustrated. It just seemed like we were hitting road block after road block. I would get my hopes up thinking this week would be the week we were going to close and something would come up. So when we finally set a date and time to sign all the papers I WAS EXCITED!!!. Buying a house is very stressful and it can be very stressful on a marriage. I was constantly calling Todd asking him where certain papers were and then when he would come home for his days off it seemed like it was consumed of more and more paperwork for the house; no time to just sit and relax with each other. But my love for Todd grew even stronger through all this. I am so grateful that I married such an amazing guy. And I am grateful we have a home to start our family in!!

#10: At the end of March Todd had some fire training in Denver so I got to go with him.. It was a lot of fun we were there for a week and it was a very much needed getaway for Todd and I. Its amazing with Todd working out of town how these little get aways are something we need. Todd is such a hard worker and he is so dedicated to his job and doing the best he can. I am grateful that he was raised to be a hard worker and give a 110% in all he does.    

#9: At the end of April I was headed home from Twin, I had been there doing hair that day when I was headed out on Addison and I had a semi pull out in front of me and I totalled my car. I have never been in a car accident before and I pray that I will never have to go through that ever again. It was one of the scariest things I have ever had to witness. I am so grateful that I was not injured. I know without a doubt in my heart that my Father in Heaven was watching over me that day and that my time here on this earth is not done that I still have a lot to do here. I am grateful for my family and for all they do for me. They were all there for me and I am so grateful for that. I am especially thankful for Tara she was the one who came and got me from the scene of the accident and I am so grateful that she was there and for her love for me.

#8: So in May Todd and I had to go shopping for a new vehicle since mine was totalled in the car accident. It was an experience to say the least. We spent the day in Utah looking for cars and it was one of the most stressful days of my life. I wanted another bigger SUV because just being in a car accident I didn't feel safe in anything else. To make a long story short Todd and I had our first fight that day cause we both were frustrated cause we weren't finding what we were looking for and we were running out of time. And Todd was wanting to settle on a certain car and I wasn't willing to. It might be bad for me to say this but I am grateful for that fight it taught us a lot and we are so much closer because of that silly fight.

#7  In August Todd had a competition in Gillette Wyoming so we headed there for a week. I got to go along with him again. While we were there we got to go see Mount Rushmore. Ever since I can remember I have always wanted to go see Mount Rushmore it just fascinates me. I am grateful that I got to have the experience to go there and finally see it. Its mind blowing that they were able to create something like that it truly amazing and beautiful talent.   

#6: In July all my moms sisters and their daughters and my grandma got to go kayak the snake river. It was a lot fun we didn't make it all the way back to the finish because it started to rain and lightning. We had a horrible storm come through while we were still out on the river. We were able to get all the kayak's out of the water and get under some trees. The guy who is in charge of it all finally showed up with a pontoon. So we all boarded the boat and sat under some shelter till the storm passed then he took us back to his place. While were were just hanging out on the boat waiting for the storm to pass I don't know how prayers I said in my head. I have never been out in a storm like that before it was raining so hard and the lightning was hitting all around us; it was so close. I just kept praying that Heavenly Father would keep us all safe and let us be ok... My testimony of prayer was strengthened that day. Heavenly father brought me peace and I knew that things were going to work out and we were all going to be ok. I am so thankful that I can pray to my Father in Heaven whenever I want.  

#5: Todd built a fence for our backyard this fall. It is amazing how much security this fence has brought me. I love living in the country but living on this main road has me freaked out a little bit. It is like we have no privacy at all. It is amazing what people say they saw you outside doing the other day.. (thankfully nothing too bad).. So we decided to build us a fence. It has been a learning experience. The wind has blown bits and pieced down several times. Todd has gotten so frustrated with it he has even threatened to tear it down and start over:) But I am grateful for the fence and for the safety that I feel because of it. I know that might seem silly but it truly brings me comfort knowing that we have a fence and that its there to provide us with some privacy.

#4: At the end of November we got to go to Salt Lake for five days cause Todd had a conference to go to for his job. I love Salt Lake especially during the holiday season. While we were down there we took a carriage ride around Temple Square. It was one of the neatest things I have ever gotten to do. It was so nice to be able to get away from all the crazy cars and enjoy the lights from a different perspective. After the carriage ride we went over and listened to the choir practice. I love the spirit of the gospel. I love that I know that this church is true. I am so grateful for my membership in the church. And I am thankful that I had the opportunity to go to temple square and be reminded of the love I have for the church. I love the Salt Lake temple it is breathtaking.

#3: I got to go to Las Vegas again this year with my parents. My dad got the opportunity to rope in the World Series team roping championship again. We were there for a little over a week and I had so much fun. I got to know and see a different side of my parents and I loved it. I have amazing parents and I am so grateful that I am close with both of them. My dad did awesome this year he ended up 5th I am so proud of him and I am glad I got to experience this with them.

#2: This is a hard one for me to talk about. Todd and I have been trying to start our family for a year and a half now and we still have had no luck. This has been very hard on me emotionally. There have been many nights when I am here by myself that I just cry and cry and cry.  I long to be a mom I long to have a baby of my own to hold and to cuddle. I want a family so bad I want to fill this big house of ours with kids. I want toys scattered all over, I want loads of laundry piled up. I want this house to not be so quiet that I hear every single thing. It has been so hard for me to accept that it is all in God's hands and that he has a plan for Todd and I and for our family. I continue to struggle with this each and every day. But over the past year I have learned to much. Instead of envying those who say they are expecting I have come to be excited for them; I am not saying that it comes easy but I am working hard on it. I know that we will be blessed with a family.

#1: On September 16 Todd and I celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary. What a blessing these last three years have been. We have been through so much; the good and the bad. But I would not want to go through any of it with anyone other than Todd. I love him more that the day I married him. I remember the day we got married. We both were crying as we sat in the sealing room and the temple president talked to us before he sealed us together for Time and all Eternity; The spirit was so strong. We were where we were suppose to be. I am so lucky to be married to Todd he is my best friend and I love him so much.   

2012 You have been a good year I am a better person physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritual because of the things this year has brought me. I hope that everyone had a wonderful new year and that 2013 will be a great year for all my family and friends. I love you all!! Happy New Year!!